I used to have many faults, now I have only two - everything I say and everything I do...

I have been misunderstood by someone... Won't mention the name though..

He said I changed... I changed a lot... He said I often look so depressed and I became someone hard to approach ...He concluded that he misses the previous me.. I stood my ground and told him that he is not in a position to judge me... He doesn't know that much about me, he doesn't know what I've been going through these days... But you know what? He's one of the reasons... That I am looking gloomy...

Deep inside, I would like to tell him that he's the reason for those changes, but I realized that saying this to him would only make things worse...

Apathy. I feel so much apathy...

By the way, my dog Finley ... Died today.. We consider him as an alarm dog.. Since he would howl/bark if someone living in the house would arrive or my service is about to come.. I'll miss him...

Starbucks..

The ever famous hang out spot of teens like me... Some say it's overpriced, some say quality puts up the price... Whatever they say about Starbucks.. Still, this is my favorite coffee place..

It's not just your typical kapihan, they provide quality coffee, alternatives if you're not a caffeine addice (frappes,teas, juice), yummy pastries and their cool coffee holders/mugs/whatever... I remember the first time we ate at Starbucks, I ordered Vanilla Creme Frapp and Choco Filled Doughnut, my parents ordered Cafe Latte.. The cafe latte gave them a bad impression about Starbucks, for it was quite bitter... But what I ordered made me realize that Starbucks is indeed the best one. I tried a lot of frapps, and I assure you they all taste great.. My parents kept on ordering Latte which I think is a dumb idea.. One time, me and my mom decided to go to the nearest starbucks, here she changed her decision and decided to try out something new, in the form of Green Tea.. She actually liked it, I was surprised, I hope this changed mom's impression..

On my birthday celebration, January 12, I ordered Peppermint Mocha, it was not your best tasting frappe but still, I liked it.. I urged myself to completely erase mom's impression about starbucks so I bought her a White Chocolate Mocha... When she first took a sip, she told me that it really tastes good. She even said that it is what she'll always order when we visit Starbucks...

Now, my dad will be the only left in our house that has the bad impression on Starbucks... Hmm. Wonder what I'll order him?


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Yes you!!
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U know what...
From all the heartbreaks I've been through.. I finally learned that if you really love someone, you would do whatever it takes for them to be happy even if it means that you're not a part of it...

I've started experiencing heartbreaks since I was grade 6... That experience made me cry almost everyday, even family friends noticed that I became so gloomy. It took me about 6 months to move on.. Then I met someone, he made me so happy, I forgot about my past.. Yet, he still seemed to be someone unright for me, another heartbreak..

I changed school, not because of them.. But because my parents want me to and I kinda want a little change... There I met him, we don't actually talk or what, just a simple glance then done... I was expecting so much from him, for there were signs that he was feeling exactly the same way I was... But then, without me knowing, he was already courting someone... It tore me apart, I was waiting for a year and a half, and all that wait turned out to be worthless... I'm quite disappointed, if he would just shown or told me that he was already seeing someone else, but he didn't.. So, another heartbreak.

Every heartbreak, I cry, I experienced "paninikip ng dibdib", I learned to appreciate heartbreak songs, I learned to stare at complete blankness then suddenly cry... If this continued on, by now, I would have learned to cut myself up...

But, I read this passage... You really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means you're not a part of it..
Acceptance is the key. Accepting the fact that both of you are over... Accepting the truth that he is destined to be with someone not you..

I still cry from heartbreaks, but I guess.. That's all I would do.. Just to ease the pain.. Di na ko hahantong pa sa pag lalaslas...


I hate periodicals... It's the only test in the quarter that I can't seem to cram..

Acknowledgements
Thank you..
Mr. Desk Lamp for bringing light into my dark desk..
Mr. Ballpen for helping me write key words
Mr. Bond Paper and Index Card for providing space for me to write keywords
Mr. Coffee mug for providing me my coffee and her wife
Mrs. Coffee for keeping me awake at night
Mr. Electric Fan for spreading the cold air
Mr. Computer or providing me music and online buddies that asks me about my progress in reviewing
Mr. Book and Ms. Notebook for my study materials
And of course..
Mr. Computer Chair for providing full support in my bottoms..

Let's give them a warm applause...
*CLAP*CLAP*CLAP*


You have read my rants
You have read my raves
But still..
You don't know me that much


I'm Kathleen Chiloe
I won't reveal my surname
Online Rules remember?
You may see my picture at the top
And yes, that's indeed me
I'm just simple...
But just like every other girl
I can be so confusing at the same time..

I love to laugh..
But I don't want to be laught at...

I love to love..
Or whatever

I love silence..
I adore the serenity it makes

I love pups...
I love their cute noses
And the way they howl...

I love PINK...
I love, i adore, i like it...

Well.. This is almost enough..
I'll just add something up when I think of it...

But for now..
This sums me up!!

'Chiloe





Return of the Bygones

I thought I was over you
I thought I made it through
But the moment, I held your hands
My heart aroused, I can't understand

Starting at that moment
I can't stop thinking of you
All the times we're together
I was hoping you're feeling the same way too

When we departed ways
I can still feel the echoes of your touch
You're words got stuck unto my mind
Loving you again was never too much

As much as I could
I tried to keep my feelings
But my heart was beating so loud
Your name it was screaming


I wrote this poem... It was real life inspired...


14th Birthday

My birthday is coming tomorrow.. I'm turning fourteen.. Got to leave thirteen n0w...

My 13 years old year had been such a blast I didn't notice it flying so fast..
During this year...
I went to Hong Kong to have our vacation
I took singing lessons at CPMP
I became a sophomore
I reunited with my cousins who were away for about 8 years
I broke 2 hearts.. ^^ Alongside with that, my heart also got broken
I learned to commute on my own
I got my braces on

There are certainly more significant moments on my 13th year..

On Saturday, me and a bunch of my friends are about to go to ATC Alabang for a little celebration...

Mmm. .Really excited now.. I can imagine now the scent of Peppermint Mocha and Vanilla Creme Frap... Yum!

Just thinking about it makes me so hungry.. Haha...


Hmm...

Here's a continuation of my "what if" post last time..

What if animals could talk?
Well, that would be interesting...

What if there is no language barrier?
Hmm.. Traveling would be so much easy... You wouldn't have to use sign language to someone who talks... Gets?

What if we had the principle that woman dominates man?
I'll be a lot happier... I don't know why.. But I'm sure I'll be..

What if pink is the superior color?
Well, that's a dream come true... I really love pink more than anyhthing else.

What if I had no sense of sight?
That's a tough one.. It's really hard no to see anything at all... I'd rather prefer to lose my talking senses rather than my sight.. It's a lot easier if you can't speak rather than to see complete blackness in the rest of my life.


I think these are enough already.. I'll come back for more.. But for now, I'm gonna stop posting "what if" questions...


What is it like?

What is it like to have a brother/sister?
- I have been an only child from the rest of my life.. I don't know what it feels to have a sibling..

What is it like to be a right-handed?
- I tried to write using my right hand.. But it always turns out... BLAH!

What is it like to be a boy?
- How was it like to make the first move? How is it like to be someone who courts? And.. What do I look like when I'm a boy?

(to be continued)
I'm gonna think of what to put anymore...


My 2008 Resolution

I made this at exactly 12:00 (in my computer's clock)..

1. I'll take care of myself more often...
- boys shouldn't be taken seriously to avoid serious damage
- nail biting is a big no no
- control my diet
2. Remove unwanted traits in me such as...
- being too moody
- crowd hater/ loner
- kinda a couch potato
- being a pik0n!!
3. Learn some helpful preferences
- how to budget allowance
- how to balance work and play
- how to make a day worthwhile
4. And of course, I should learn from past experience and apply it on this year...

Finished 12:07