marami pa yan. just check the source link provided above. these are just the ones that caught my attention.




ooh. HI EVERYONE. long time. no blog.

internet fever hasn't bugged me since christmas vacation. IN OTHER WORDS. wala akong ganang mag internet.. there are about 35 comments in my friendster account waiting to be published, folders containing christmas pictures waiting to be uploaded.. AND TONS OF KWENTO, waiting to be blogged..

crap. i need resident evil badly. waaa. i miss em' zombies. for the meantime. shrek would do...

















' oo yun na yun. sabi ko nga kasi. TINATAMAD AKO




i got this crazy dream last night. wherein. knifes are coming out of nowhere. and i saw aegan. i wasn't 100% sure if that was him... well. whoever he was. i tried to save that kid. i covered him, and my body was enough to fully cover him from the STRANGE attack.. then BOOM. a knife found its way to the back of my head. I DIED... then. i saw someone. He's so bright, i just looked away. and i remember saying.. "isa pa po, another chance?".. and true enough, he granted my wish. . . . ------

the rest isn't part of this story.

i cried habang natutulog ako. how did i know? kasi, pag gising ko. namamaga mata ko e. LIKE WHOA.

well, was it really worth it? me dying, for the sake of that kid.... kung mangyari man sa totoong buhay, will i ever take the risk? sacrifice my life just for him.

• ayokong mag-grief masyado ang parents ko. e pano naman yung parents nung kid?

• sayang yung 14 years ko. pero. siya. way younger than me. marami pa siyang kailangang maexperience.

• i'd rather stay in heaven, than continue my life in this cruel world. it sounds selfish. kasi. i would let them suffer so much.. especially from the pain of my loss [nga ba?!] tapos ako. andun. enjoying my life with GOD.

ewan. i am trying so hard to keep my mind off of this "subject".. ackk. basta. bahala na. ):


hehe. wala lang. it's like he's stuck there. in my mind. gaahd.. he's all i think about. well. almost. :D
yesterday. at k---n, he was singing YOUR UNIVERSE by rico blanco. i was there. sitting sa work place ko being mermerized by his singing & he was just a meter away from me. which like made my atmosphere. brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr



my heart. and hands are dying to blog right now.

kanina pang umaga. habang andun ako. pretending to highlight things in my book, while i try to listen.. to their laughter who i was once a part of... their constant silly question, which usually made me laugh... i was sarcastic the whole day.. trying to laugh and smile as much as i can... trying hard to portray in my actions that

the first thing i wanted was my blog. i wanted to release pain. kanina. at school. i used the back of my english notebook... writing things that made my hands shake so badly... i had to stop..

then i wanted my best friends. bea.aira.either one.i imagined myself, lunging into them... CRYING. i longed for their hug... longed for their voices. advices and such...


and then. there was a part of me. that wanted to be offensive. attack verbally [ the number and their sizes were too big for it to be physical] and target the opposers' weaknesses. but i restrained.


oh look. i'm crying. ):
my throat's been aching the whole day... at ngayon lang ako nakakuha ng time para umiyak. walang tao sa bahay e.

i have been INVISIBLE for the past 2 days...and no one minds. but me.





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sorry. di ko na kayang mgtype. i'll try to continue next time. the tears are blocking my eyes. can't see.
my hands are shaking again. i can't type properly.


1.2.3.4
yea. 4. apat sila. gaahd. you're killing me.. i dunno what's the problem. sabihin nating AKO na ang mali. wtf?!

SABIHIN niyoooooo kasi. tae. hindi ako manghuhula.

i soooooo abhor this day. ):
first. the feud-ish ewan.
second. i saw him. with his new love interest. i wanted to cry. sabi nga ni aira. "akala ko ba wala na, sampalin kita jan e. [hehe]"


nako. buti na lang. andiyan SI JABEE. :)
we held each other's hand. siguro. for about 15 seconds yun. TWICE pa. hihihihihihi. paahk.. gusto niyo ng proof. er. tanungin niyo na lang ako



i was never a PERFECT friend. but they ACCEPTED me. with WIDE arms.
sure i forgot some important dates. like for example. a bff-date or perhaps. a birthday. but they let it go. we forget things. FOR CHRIST'S SAKE. i even forget the current date.!

i never got on a fight with any of them.
sure we have some misunderstandings. but i tell you. AFTER THAT.
we'll be tighter than ever.
not slowly ripping apart.

i can talk. HOWEVER. and WHATEVER i want to talk about.
I AM MYSELF. no more. no less.

Si Bhesh, Si Twin, Anak ko, & si Kat.
my labs. my best friends.
i love you girls.






cwap. senti mode


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by the way.



I'll take up B.S Accounting. FINAL na. [hopefully]
and i'm choosing between.

• DLSU
• St. Scholastica
• & Ateneo

any suggestions? goodness. ngayong pa lang. THIRD YEAR PA LANG AKO. ang laki na ng problema ko sa college. ano pa kaya next year?

kasi naman e... bwisit. e di sana MAY IDEA man lang ako kung ano yung appropriate course para sakin. ):

LORD, PLEASE HELP ME. (:

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uh.

• go to star city with my cousins
• go to festi with my cousins ulit and make laspag our christmas money [i sound weird]
  
• have a long trip to baguio using xty
• go to tagaytay and check in for the weekend.

sweeet. teka. TAKE NOTE. these are MY plans. not our FAMILY's plans.


what does it feel like to be a born again in a catholic school? I KNOW! there isn't much SEGREGATION between the two. but OF COURSE. disadvantages are a PART of it.
like.

1. we have no friggin' idea about the basic catholic prayers. and being in a Catholic school means that you need to memorize them. i remember when i was a freshman, we had this quiz on CVE concerning basic prayers and I scored zero
2. the communion [part of the mass] sure. we have our own communion, but since they do it different, i'd rather just sit down. nako. pag malayo yung class niyo dun sa priest, gosh. antagal mong magiging emu dahil mag-isa ka lang, and you have to wait for them to return one by one
3. those annoying students who takes things literally. those who refer "born again" as. yung pinasok ulit sa womb ng nanay tapos pinanganak ulit.. [SABAY TAWA] TAKTE. it's irritating. and sad to say. MY SEATMATE is one of em. nananahimik na lang ako when he says that. darnit. i respect his/their religion, can't he do the same for mine?!.

okay. fyi. here is our church's definition of being a "born again"

"How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother’s womb and be born?" <- parang yung seatmate ko lang e no?!

"Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God." <- okay. ito na yung meaning. water means the "word" HIS holy word to be exact.,and SPIRIT means JESUS..
we have to die, in the flesh/soul. and be born in GOD's word and live in JESUS CHRIST'S spirit.

okay na?!

















well, i'm back to basics. by basics, i mean. NO MORE html editings. let blogger do his work. (: i'm sticking with TEMPLATES

CREDITS to MICS for providing teh link to the COOLEST xml template provider.