excuse me for the word. especially sa mga boys. (:

dysmenorrhea/dysmenorrhea/dysmenorrhoea -encarta dictionary had 3 spellings.
-severe pain or cramps in the lower abdomen during menstruation.


lame post. (:






I TOTALLY LOVE MY CURSOR.

kita niyo ba? MF kasi ako e.



these are the words that made up my day today,. er. gusto ko talaga pumunta dun sa perya.. kahit alam ko na, the rides aren't that S-A-F-E. i still wanted to go, for the sake of F-U-N. pero, unfortunately, may lagnat pala yung isa sa kamabal.. kaya my mom cancelled the plan.




worst intrams. worst scores. what else could go WORSE?

crap. i hope wala na. it's been Tough. [with a capital T]...

academics, activities, personal problems. they all came in a sudden... i wish i have a remote wherein i could control everything. like the one in the movie "Click". i need to stop time

• to make my grades higher,
  
• to get MOOORE SLEEP.
• to actually finish reading NEW MOON.
  

now. projects are OVERFLOWING. deadlines are fast ahead. and I still KEEP ON RANTING.

PROCRASTINATING .. ack. it's RANKING #1 in my own list of "7 DEADLY SINS"
fcuk.


i've been doing something wrong. ALL ALONG. and i myself, haven't even noticed it. he wasn't like this. we weren't like this. we were tighter than siblings. but now. we seemed to be JUST friends.





that i'm actually getting somewhere with my "moving on" progress. haha. i'm not getting those butterflies anymore.

ohnoo. those GUY or should i say. gayiish? bananas are currently DISTURBING my head right now

tata.



oh yes they are.. they almost KILLED the spirit of INTRAMS in me. i knew, US, being a constant winner wouldn't always result to something POSITIVE. it'll kill the whole class if we'll lose, and LEADERS, they would take every single thing in a FRIGGIN serious way. EVEN THE DETAILS.

the day wasn't that all bad though, i still gave some of my CRAZY laughs... especially because of this GAY-like thing. [those guy bananas really knocked the hell out of me] <---- you won't get this one unless you attended our Intramurals Opening...

ooh. and crap. my toes hurt. BADLY.


blog's anniv tom.


paaaaak. I RUINED MY BLOG.
haha. so much from trying. i should have just left the CSS editing to experts.
at least i'm clear in one thing.
I HAVE NO TALENT, WHATSOEVER IN EDITING A BLOGGER LAYOUT.
kasi namn e. why does it have to be so darn complicated.

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[updated 5:39]
i think i'm going to stick with this skin. erg.


i am not YET satisfied with what my blog looks like. CRAPPY.

ONGOING CONSTRUCTION.








i am like totally bummed right now. so i've decided to...

**drum rolllllll**

change my layout. hahaha.. i have never been satisfied with what my blog looks like.. but because boredom is currently killing me. i might as well give it a try to create the almost-perfect one
nothing's perfect ayt?

brr. sooo until I SAY SO.
this
BLOG IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION.


i got inspired. by rosie hardy's art.
i got it from ada's blog. and when i checked it out.
it was totally AWESOME.
i love the idea. the humor. the art. the creativity. EVERYTHING.

i got inspired.
what can i do with a digi cam? tell me. xD


toldya imma gonna get this blog a new look. there's just one tiny detail i forgot to look over. there's no archives section cwaaaaapp.
i still admire the overall layout though.


and finally. a blog that made it through. on the 25th... it'll be my very 1st anniversary here on blogger.

i'm posting this to actually remind me when will it be. (: yea. i have a bogus mind.

what to do? new layout? new look?. whatev.i just need to do something to refresh this YEAR OLD blog.

oh. and btw.. my baby bird died, i dunno if it was the storm.if it was. SCREW YOU KAREN. ):

ge.i have to study. last day of exam tom. too bad mom didn't allow me to gala with my friends. she insisted i go with her sa makati.then quezon city. and with that, i'll insist that we go to glorietta.

my arms still hurts. though not that much. thanks to lester for that "reflexology" thingy he did a while ago. (:
he won't read this anyway. hahaha


kanina. we were watching GAME KNB and i told my mom na those contestants are either from La Salle or Ateneo.

tapos. bigla siyang humirit. "chie. gusto mo sa ateneo?"
banat ko? "syempre naman no!. why? carry niyo?"

"basta maipasa mo, carry namin ni papa yan"

woa. I was like. whatduhhh.
HONESTLY. ateneo was really my first choice sa college. pero the fact that sobrang taas ng tuition, di ko alam kung carry ni papa. E YUN NAMAN PLA E. carry naman pala nila. e di mag aateneo na ko.

UST or Ateneo?
yan lang ang choices ko for now.. I HAVE NO PLANS OF ENTERING DLSU. ewan ko ba. di ko trip.
2 YEARS PA NAMAN. pero.. i'd rather be ready than cram sa 4th year. (:


"i love you but. GOODBYE."

that's what he said. a while ago.




i woke up hearing my mom's voice saying
"CHIIIIEEE. binaba na nung lovebirds yung anak nila"

i jumped out of my bed. fixed my self for about 3 seconds and hurriedly ran outside to check it out. true enough. there it was. grungy yet adorable. it kept on eating.
i kept checking the chick every hour and it seemed to be stable. then. when i was about to check it. i saw the. err. [I dunno if it was the dad or mom. i'll just call it BLUE BIRD] blue bird attacking the chick. but as soon as i came near and looked closely. blue bird immediately flew away. i told mom about it but when she checked. everything still seemed to be normal so she didn't believe me. CRAP ayt?

then. while i was soldering. [YEA.SOLDERING.] my mom called me. IN A SHOUTING WAY. i again jumped up from where i was sitting and ran outside. THERE. i saw the chick. it's head was covered in blood. and i saw the BLUE BIRD's beak with marks of blood. MEANING. the BLUE BIRD is the one responsible for the chick's sitch. my mom told me to stand guard if ever the BLUE BIRD would attack again for she will go and find a cage to seclude the chick. while i was there. looking at the chick's wound. my heart pounded and my throat twisted. I almost cried. he was just tooo little to be hurt and to imagine that his er. parent did this to him. IT WAS TRAGIC..
my mom took the chick out and i nursed it. BY NURSED i mean. placing betadine on its wound and carefully placing him to a seperate cage. he tried to er. tuka me. but he was still to little for the tuka to actually cause pain.
we placed him inside the cage and into our home where he snuggly slept. away from his violent parents.
I tried to research about this situation. but i failed.

THOSE BIRDS WILL BE GIVEN ....the rightful punishment. TIHEEE.. ughhh. the thought itself kills me.

we prayed. yes we did. (: praying that the chick would continue to live and that the wound would heal. (:

i'll try to post pictures. ):


oooh. ang ganda pala pakinggan.




i'm getting bored with this TOTALLY boring layout. i might change this sooner or later. HELLO TO HIDEOUS HTML EDITING again. ):

hm. this weekend isn't supposed to be called WEEK END. i'd rather call it a. WEEKDAY at home. we've got this 3 day vacation for Monday was declared holiday. WHATEEEVV. i've got a long list. and I'm pretty sure i'll be stubborn enough to do them

1. Study for Periodicals [yea.rite]
2. Redo/Remake the Periodic Table
3. Finish the Finalized Chapter One for our Non-Investigatory Project
4. Arrange our Group Webbie's layout to what our teacher is requesting
5. Start doing the powerpoint presentation for CVE [this isn't supposed to be here. for at first i thought that our section would present last. GUESS WHAT. the tables are turned.]
6. Analyze 5 chapters of Noli Me Tangere and answer the guide questions
7. Make a reflection on our club's outreaches, sensitivity training and introduction ceremonies.
   
8. Finish the AM RADIO due on Tuesday
9. Edit pictures. SPECIAL REQUESTS

ARG. i know i did something wrong. but i never realized it until i saw your glossy eyes. your lying smile. & you. WALKING OUT. ):

i know how you feel. BELIEVE ME. i do. and I HAVE NO INTENT of making you feel it too. i ruined an almost great BARKADA bond. i spoiled MOODS. i DISAPPOINTED you again.




brr. tambay mode sa candy mag. webbie.


whoa. that was a neat way to start my day. around chemistry class. [2nd period.] i felt a sudden dizziness. i knew i took my breakfast, so it wouldn't mean i'm hungry. crap. it bothered me all period. i felt sleepy, i feel like throwing up. and true enough, i threw up.after class. [IN A CLEAN WAY MIND YOU] && after that. i felt fine. like nothing ever happened.

i told moomie about this. and sabi niya. baka daw low blood ako. i asked her about the symptoms. and she just mentioned "OVER STRESSed".

HELL YEAH I AM. being a 3rd year isn't as easy as i expected. TAMBAK kami ng assignments.projects. etc.etc.etc.

then. i realized. kagabi. my nape feels.. weird. and UNTIL now. masakit. hindi siya stiff neck type ng sakit. pero iba e.. diba? PAIN SA NECK IS another symptom.

nako. LOW BLOOD. crap.

ayun. my mom advised me na wag na muna akong matulog ng late.


COLORBOX SURVEY!
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RED

1. Are you currently mad at someone?
- HELL YEAH

2. Which of your friends has the worst temper?
- err.

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
- OO. (:

4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?
- no. that happens to pale skinned ones. (:

5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell/scream?
- neither. i stay silent

ORANGE

1. Has anyone ever thrown you a suprise party?
- naah.

2. Are you easily excited?
- not really.

3. What event is coming up that your most excited about?
- intramurals. except the fact that HE'LL be there

4. Which of your friends is most excitable?
- err. lahat

5. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought?
- converted to pesO? how much?

6. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
-a speaker or sound card

YELLOW

1.NAME?
- kathleen chiloe

2. Where were you born?
- san pedro laguna

3. What's your main goal in life?
- live life to the fullest

4. Do you want to have children?
- yea

5. How do you want to die?
- by sleep

GREEN

1. Do you like this colour?
- yes

2. Gay Marriage?
-no

3. Lowering the drinking age?
- no

4. Capital Punishment?
- just reclusion perpetua. no death sentence

5. Abortion?
- no

6. Recycling?
- hell yea

BLUE

1. What was your latest dream?
- i was told by a friend that him and her are going out. TRAGIC. i almost cried. while sleeping!!

2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most?
- kuya ian

3. Have any of your dreams come true?
- not that i could remember

4. Do you usually remember your dreams?
- yes.

5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had?
- everything. ):

PURPLE

1. Straight, Gay, Bi?
- straight

2. Do you have a bf/gf?
- nope

3. Do you have a crush?
- i dunno

4. Who is the best "hugger" that you know?
- dad. (: taba kasi e

5. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- no

6. Have you ever been in love?
- yes.......


SORRY fer the sudden gush of survey.

i have nothing to do eee. i have answered an iq test. *gasp* surfed a LOL/CEILING cat website.
seee. what boredom could do to me.


FILLITOUT!
[surveyxlove.multiply.com]

People:

1. micah
2. iah
3. jelo
4. kuya ian
5. bea
6. janelle.

Fill in the Blanks!
1 is - UBER cool accdg. to urbandictionary.com
2 is - mylub.
3 is - a bailagos membaaa. xD
4 is - my shock absorber. (:
5 is - my besss. since freshman yr
6 is - my friend eversince grade school (:

HOW DID YOU MEET:
1: classmate last year
2: classmate last year
3: classmate last year
4: classmate last year
5: classmate lastlast year and last year
6: she was sitting right beside me during our 1st grade recognition

IS:
Is...1 cute? nevermind cute. CALL HER PRETTY
Would you date...2? hell yeah
Has...3 ever been in jail? NOOO. ata.
Has ...4 ever been skinny dipping? hehe. di ko alam. half lang. xDDD
What state/province does ...5 live in ? laguna province
Does ...6 have a videogame system? i guess so

WHAT IS:
1's favorite drink? milo. (:
2's eye color? dark brown
3's favorite sport? basketball? ehe. tama b?
4's favorite class? geometry. hehe
5's middle name? timbreza
6's hair color? black

DOES:
Does ...1 have a dog? a cat. (:
Does ...2 have a boyfriend? marami. yeabbaaa. haha. wala. ata. (:
Does ...3 own a car? yes
Does ...4 have a crush on someone? yes
Does ...5 ice-skate? dunno. haven't seen her yet
Does ...6 have a younger sibling? yep. si borgy

IS:
Is ...1 a girl? yes
Is ...2 homeschooled? no
Is ...3 kind? ofcourse. (:
Is ...4? is what?
Is ...5 a super genius? tama lang.
Is ...6 stupid? HELL NO.

WHAT IF:
1 was your parent? astig. whatta cool parent
2 was famous? i know she'll be the same person i knew. (:
3 wanted to move to england? waaa. NOOOO
4 went insane? already is. haha. JOKE KUYA
5 egged your house? haha.
6 was a criminal? woa,what did she do??



THE UNITED NATIONS SURVEY!
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British
[ ] You drink a lot of tea.
[x] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[ ] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total = 2

Australian
[x] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard barbie.
[ ] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[ ] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[x] You are tanned. NATURALLY
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an australian something (thongs, shirt, phone, sock, etc.)
Total = 3

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[X] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[x] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''.
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world.
[ ] You talk with your hands.
Total = 5

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[x] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what plantos are.
Total = 5

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[ ] You get short tempered.
[ ] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[ ] You don't get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total = 2

Polish+Ukrainian
[x] Your parents let you drink.
[ ] Your kind of party consists of Vodka spiked with Vodka.
[ ] You love listening to techno.
[ ] You know what a pyzda is.
[ ] You have Pierogi at least once a week.
[ ] People always ask to see your "kielbasa" checking if your polish.
[ ] People randomly call you their best friend.
[ ] You have made/know what pisanki are.
[ ] You laughed when Poland beat the USA in the 2002 world cup.
total = 1 xD

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[x] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a y, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking/singing.
Total = 3

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[x] You can sing gospel.
Total = 3

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[x] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're chinese.
[x] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total = 4

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think American Chocolate is good.
[ ] You Speak some German.
[ ] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2". 5'3 ata akooo e
Total = 4

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some french.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total = 1

American
[ ] You hate foriegners.
[x] You hate non - Christians.
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[x] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[ ] You shop at walmart.
[x] You think this survey is rather biased.
total =4

so, what are you now? ;] HYBRID. hahahaha


RANDOM.
[surveyxlove.multiply.com]

How many people have you liked in the past 8 months?
- 3. i counted.

Have you ever done anything illegal?
- none significant.

Would you rather spend a whole day with your mom, or your dad?
- depends on how we would spend it.

Where will you be 12 hours from now?
- bed. sleeping.

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
- quite.

What are you going to do tomorrow?
- church. homework. GAAH.

Who do you wish you were with right now?
- dad.

Who was the last person you kissed?
- mom. (:

Does anyone hate you for no reason?
- i dunno.

Can you make yourself cry?
- HELL YEAH. i'm good at it actually.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
- 7. 11-6

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
- OF COURSE.

When was the last time you lied?
- err. i can't remember.

How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
- LOTSAAA. that's my mom you're talking about

Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
- no.

Have you ever kissed someone who's name starts with the letter C?
- of course. (:

Have you ever been out past curfew?
- i am BLESSED not to be given curfew.

Have you ever snuck people into your house?
- almost.

Are you easily confused?
- yes. cause i'm a damn pessimist.

Do you think you'd make a good parent?
- i hope so. i would live by my mom's principle.

What is your favorite kind of ice cream?
- vanilla with chocolate hard dip

Do you like your school?
- i love it.

Are you taller than 5 foot 7 inches?
- NO.

Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
- he didn't before. but he is now.

What color are your socks?
- mostly white. but i also have blue and orange ones

Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it back?
- of course

When and what was behind the last reason you cried?
- can you consider almost (almost crying)? it was about. CONFIDENTIAL. ack

Do you like anyone on your myspace?
- i deleted my myspace ages ago

Something you've learned about the opposite sex?
- BOYS will be. and will forever be. BOYS

When was the last time you laughed?
- now. after hearing my mom's ridiculous laugh. hahahaha.

What are you listening to right now?
- jazz music. 92.3 (:

How has the week been?
- stressful. with bombarded HOMEWORKS.DEADLINES and stuffs. WHO WOULDN'T BE?

So is there something you wish you could tell someone but you can't?
- YES.

What time did you wake up today?
- around 6. a bit earlier i guess?

What level can you play on Guitar Hero?
- wha? i don't play it

When was the last time you ate ice cream?
- ages ago. (:

Today did you hug a person you have feelings for?
- (:

What level can you play on drums for Rock Band?
- what?

Siblings?
- 0. NADA

Does your home phone have caller id?
- yes.

Who is your favorite neighbor?
- si balong. hehe.

Do you wish at 11:11?
- no.

Ever gotten a detention?
- detention isn't practiced here.

Do you still watch disney channel?
- EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE

Your last IM?
- a gm. (:

Something new you did this past week?
- er. i hanged out with new peeps.

Single or taken?
- single.

What song bests describes your love life right now?
- i wish i never by sopiz

Something you'll never do?
- M2M.

Things you're wearing right now:
- clothes. locket necklace.

Are you currently in a relationship?
- yu mean the ROMANCE STUFF? no.

Have you ever been given a rose?
- yes.


Type in the following and choose the first choice (that makes sense) that appears on the list.

1) Type in "[your name] needs" in Google search:

Kathleen needs to talk to people she trusts for reassurance that things will turn out great on the day.


2) Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:

Kathleen looks like she is wired for sound


3) Type in "[your name] likes" in Google search:

Kathleen likes to burp and thinks it’s okay.


4 ) Type in "[your name] says" in Google search:

Kathleen says you Can't Win If You Don't Enter.

5) Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:

kathleen wants you to see this


6) Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:

Kathleen does see jup-jup and also carry jup-jup everywhere

7) Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:

Kathleen Hates Green Beans.


8) Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search:

Kathleen Goes To the Movies


9) Type in "[your name] loves" in Google search:

Kathleen loves music


10) Type in"[your name] is" in Google search:

Kathleen is Back!



He's my kid cousin. 4 years old specifically. His name, Reagan. I call him eganog, egg-nog, pikachu, gangan etc.etc. I love him to bits, I consider him as my younger brother considering the fact that I don't have any. He originally lives in Los Angeles [which makes him an American Citizen. CRAP] and is now staying with us, here in the Philippines due that her mom [my mom's sister] is taking up a second course in nursing. He is a HUGE BLESSING to my tita weng and tito elmer, kasi, they didn't have any child for ten years [beating my mom's record of six] & way before, tita weng lost a child [in filipino term. nalaglag. tragic isn't it?]. He's very very smart mind you, he memorized all of "Thomas and Friends" characters when he was about 2 years old. and I confess that I, myself gets confused with them. DANG. those trains all look the same. His passion is cars, trains, trucks. IN SHORT. anything that has wheels. ooh. I ALMOST FORGOT. He's very cute [refer to the photo] and I know someday, he'll be a handsome gentleman who'll make girls cry. hahahaha.
I'll miss him. kasi. they'll be returning to L.A again around next year. which would be SO HARD for me. especially that he got really deep into my heart. Everytime I ask for a kiss, he'll give me a wet one on my cheek [disgusting?! i consider it sweet.] Everytime I visit their house, he'll automatically throw himself into me just to give me a WELCOME HUG.

I LOVE YOUUUU GAN. (:


do you know what it's like.

to love someone who likes your best/friend?
or
to love someone who LOVES your best/friend?

if you do. tell me. what should i do.?


Go to www.urbandictionary.com and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write the FIRST definition it gives you...

1) Your name?
KATHLEEN
-a funky ass chick who puts out with a hot attitude. /like wha?
-a name for girls which means "Pure". Nicknames include Kathy or Kat and can also be spelled Cathleen.



2. How old are you?
14
-the age of any person who listens to music that you hate. Unless of corse you ARE actually 14, in which case the age of any person who listens to music that you hate is 12.

-the relegated age of anyone on Myspace who doesn't want you to see his/her profile. /proven fact. I KNOW, -the final year of becoming a child /aw crap. is this foreal? that would be a sucker.

3) Friends:
MICAH - Describing someone or something that is a new level of uber coolness, /NICE. uber cool pala a. xD

BEA -	An awesome Asian girl who loves cuddling and hugs. /aw.sweet.

IAN-code for a hot guy. cannot be used in the case of females.

MARIAH [haha. walang iah e. MARIAH na lang]	The cutest girl at school. 0_O haha. peace

MARIA.-[no definition kasi sa aira e. ):]	-the most sexy girl you will ever meet, known to blow the minds of many men. Extremely talented and beautiful, eyes cut from stars.

KAT- [eee. the definition sa catherine e. err. check niyu na lang] -the coolest kid to walk the earth, a sexy nerd. Guys fall head over heels for her. She loves guys with all her heart. She loves to dance and eat chocolate. /PROVEN. totoo to


4) What Should You Be Doing?
HOMEWORK- a punishment given to students by evil teachers after the students have already put in 7 hours of hard labor. /love the definition. dontyaa?


5) Favorite Food?
CHOCOLATE- the yummiest, tastiest thing in the whole wide world. chocolate also makes u happy and makes u feel better.


6) Words to describe yourself?
PESSIMIST - an optimist who does have all the facts. XD
BRACES [la na ko maisip e]-big metal torture devices that dentists use for entertainment
-metal brackets worn in your mouth to fix crooked teeth. Not fun to wear but once they come off you will be greatful you ever got them.


7) Car you drive?
SLIGHT. (:


8) Your last name?
CERRAFON isn't defined yet. aww



erased him from my friendster list. turned my profile into private.
erased him from my ym list. and finally. i clicked IGNORE.

it's a small step for my moving on process.
which seems to be taking on forever. UGHHH.

help me carry on with my life. (:


they all attacked me.
UNSEEN. unheard.
and I was just here.sitting. in front of my pc screen.
when. all of a sudden. i felt the need to cry. and I was TRYING HARD restraining it.
i felt the need to hurt myself. and i realized it wasn't worth it.

what happened you may ask?
i disappointed someone. they disappointed me. i was badly hurt. and i was guilty to hurt someone.
IT WOULD BE ACTUALLY BETTER.
if it only concerns me, but the mere fact that i actually DISAPPOINTED somebody. it sucks the life out of me.
i may sound. TOOOOO selfless. but believe me. i have been disappointed too many times. and something like this. won't really matter at all compared to the other one.
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i still love him. yes i do. though little by little. i'm TRYING to replace the love with anger. i know it might be the WORST way cover up. but that's the only way i know.

heartbroken definition from urbandictionary.com It's a feeling you can never understand until you experience it. It is a constant pain and discomfort that you struggle with all day. It is a sickness in your stomach and a knot in your throat. It is when eating becomes a battle to swallow and falling asleep becomes inconceivable. It is unrequited love. It is the loss of someone you love. It feels like you lost apart of who you are. You fight with yourself, trying to convince yourself you are fine. It's a constant swing in your emotions. Some moment are better than others. Sometimes you think it is almost over, but then, just as suddenly you are overwhelmed with a paralyzing pain that forces you stop and rest for a moment. You are always thinking about the other person. Imagining how happy they are, while you are barely hanging on. You think about how they have forgotten about you... How could it have been so easy for them . How could they have said they cared about you, but moved on you so effortlessly. You wonder, "how could you do this... How could you say you care about me and be so careless with your words and actions?" Soon these thoughts turn to anger. Anger that you use to get you through the day. Anger is what blocks out the saddness. Hate is the only escape from the saddness you are overwhelmed by. Unfortunately, the hate is only temporary. When it eats away at you until there is nothing left, you are back to where you started. Thinking about them, and how alone you are. Now you are left to cry, either on the inside or out, and making promises to yourself that you will never let this happen again. oh look. a tear dropped. ):

book inventory-slash-review-slash-history. walang magawa e.

Hot Illustration For Youth Talk
- this was my mom's birthday gift to me. (: cool stories. ^^

A Very Strange Trip
- got this book [hardbound] for only 25php in booksale. the story is wild.fun. & historical.

How to Manage your Mother
- my dad got this for me as a joke. xD filled with stories concerning personalities and their moms

Shopaholic Take Manhattan
- the sequel. good storyline. irritating yet irresistible.

Pippi goes on Board
- a story about an orphan. [or not] who got tons of gold and has it all by herself

A treasure of Funny Stories
- title.

No More Dead Dogs
- story is divided into character's point of view

Vile Files
- eecky stories [accdg to the cover] didn't bother me that much though

Replica: Happy Birthday, Dear Amy
- fictional. AS IN. about a girl who turned 18++ overnight.

Henry Huggins
- story of a dog adopted by a naughty kid. blablabla

Julie of the Wolves
- about a girl who er. basta yun. i actually didn't finish the book. xD

Camp Confidential: Best (Boy) Friend Forever
- good book for those who think they're falling in love with their best friend

Spoilt Royals
- got this book in our school's book fair. its all about the MONARCHY. in a comedic point of view

Myth Quest: Hammer of the Gods
- norse mythology. this is where i first knew about THOR. (:

Babe: The Gallant Pig
- this one was adapted into a movie. wherein babe. err. realized he was actually a good sheep-pig

The Case of the Class Clown
- short story. nakalimutan ko na nga yung kwento e

Baby Sitters Club: Claudia and the Sad Goodbye
- i was teary eyed. ):

Baby Sitters Club: The Truth About Stacy
- i was expecting something in this book. when it turned out to be something else. hehe.

Baby Sitters Club: Claudia and the Great Search
- claudia acted dull in this story

Baby Sitters Club: Claudia and the Perfect Boy
- got nothing to say. hands down.

Foot Prints for Teens
- i read this when i need divine guidance. its my life saver

Ripley's Believe it or Not: Optical Illusion
- money waster. i saw everything on the net

Paboritong Libro ni Hudas
- my fave bob ong book. (:

Funny Trail Tales
- not actually FUNNY. not even close to be one.

Stainless Longanisa
- stories of bob ong as a writer

ABNKKBSNPLAko
- stories of bob ong as a student

Alamat ng Gubat
- Philippine Government portrayed by animals

Mac Arthur
- least favorite Bob Ong book. kadiri.too graphic. ugh

Mixed Jokes.
- napulot sa natl bookstore. (: binili.

A Christmas Carol
- i regret buying this. after reading about 3 chapters. i realized i actually have seen this onscreen. crap.

Adventures of Huckelberry Finn
- no plans of reading it. the template is just too boring

Marinade for Murder
- first chapter pa lang. di ko na magets. tinabi ko na lang

Binding
- forgot the story. ugh

More Hot Illustration For Youth Talks
- cool illustrations. HOT doesn't mean. ..... tsk

Pajama Game
- cool story. a love story. almost.

Cat Got Your Tongue
- a book about sayings. their history. and what they mean.

500 Clean & Humorous Stories
- title

Bakit Baliktad Magbasa ng Libro ang Pilipino
- or is it pinoy? my dad LOVES this book.

Confessions of A Shopaholic
- best shopaholic book. (: got hooked right right since the very first page

Undomesticated Goddess
- a workaholic who finally got her break. as a MAID.

Stories from a Teen's Heart
- heart warming stories. (: teary eyed again.

Twilight
- i haven't yet finished the book. pero. up to this point. KINIKILIG na ko.

if you want to borrow a book. notify. (: hehe. i'm even planning to sell it e.



ugh. i am totally bored.

• no one SIGNIFICANT is online.
• i barely get comments ):
• my speaker is down. no music for me.
• my cp is fixed. but i still have no plans of using it.
• nothing's good on tv.

if this would continue for the next 30 minutes. i might visit bored.com and visit they're absurd & silly sites. crap.


back to basic. i mean the template,
enough CSS editing for a while. (: let's make mi life easier.


i'm jealous. i'm dead jealous.

insecure?envy? crap. i'm just PLAIN jealous.


this twisted game i call LOVE.

i hate to play it. but still. every single vein in my body is drawn towards it.
my mind says to stop. but my heart says to play.
i always lose. though at some point I thought I was close to victory, when in fact, i would realize that i'm still miles miles away.
there were times when i was given the opportunity to win. I REFUSED THOUGH.. cause I'm not satisfied with the prize.

if i win. i want a "winner takes all" type. and the question is.
WHEN WILL I WIN?

will someone be my prize? or worse. WILL I EVER WIN.?

-naginarte ang bruha-


i had my VERY FIRST OUTREACH today.
FUN.WILD. and WORTHWHILE
we were assigned to grade 5 students. and i, specifically was assigned to COUNSELING. though i was originally assigned for GROUP DYNAMICS. i was just so eager to talk to the students that I forced my leader to change to counseling instead. the girls treated me as an "ate". they were very respectful and they almost treated me as a celebrity.
i introduced myself as "ate chi" knowing that they'll remember it more than "K.C".. knowing them individually was really interesting.
i also enjoyed the presence of the boys, most certainly them. they actually made me laugh. especially this one kid that kept on saying "alaska men" whenever i would meet his eyes. HE'S JUST SO DARN CUTE. in a cuddly way. then there's this boy who was seating right in front of the electric fan. i called him "PRESKO".

a loner. a perfectionist. a people person. and the one who always wanted to IMPRESS.
anyways. I LOVE THEM ALL. i actually hugged the girls when we were called to go back to school. (:

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when i got back home. my mom welcomed me with an amazing news. though it was not yet confirmed.
she told me that she actually heard a baby bird's TWEET inside my lovebird's nest. curious and eager. i grabbed the flashlight and inspected. then there. i saw a chick. hatched. [of course] it was pink. and looked like it was 2 days old. SWEET. my lovebirds are a PERFECT PAIR.


nuff said.
when will my rainbow come?