okay. i got this HUGE crush kay ano..... geez. (: nung last friday, we slept around 2:30am.. txtxttxttxtx lang ng txtxttxtxtxtxtxt. tapos. we woke up. mga 7am txtxtxtxtxxtxtxtx na naman. too bad, my unli ended by 11 am.

uber kilig... hahahaha.

♥♥jabeeeeeeeee♥♥♥♥jabeeeeeeeee♥♥♥♥jabeeeeeeeee♥♥♥♥


mag business ako. (: haha. naisipan lang. kasi. mahirap nang kitain ang pang-load sa panahon ngayon.








TREKKING- make long difficult journey: to make a long difficult journey, especially on foot and often over rough or mountainous terrain[encarta]

trekking sa cracked na rock. [haha.accdg. to mics] in other words. sa BIAK na bato. san miguel bulacan. er. well. uh. i wasn't THAT excited kaya ang gising ko ay. err. gising ng di excited. wtf? by that i mean. hindi ako gumising ng 3-4 hours before our etd.. haha..

we were seated sa pinaka-unahan. (not counting the teacher's RESERVED chair) which made it easier for us to hear yung mga bagay bagay sa tv. btw. we've watched MIRRORS, and it was a BLOODY and quite SCARY film..

9:00 am. arrival sa venue. assumptionistas [AS THEY WOULD LABEL IT] were there to enjoy the cracked na rock.

it was a long walk to yungib 2. pero. para malibang. dindin and i befriended kuya tour guide. haha. and luckily. medyo game si kuya sa mga kabaliwan namin. xDDD well. the yungibs were. well. tiring, xD slippery and muddy. at di lang basta bastang MUD. the PUTEK was. UBER STICKY. kasi daw di nasisinagan ng araw.
STICKY in a way na, pag nag steady yung paa mo sa mud for more than 5 seconds? mahirap nang tanggalin.

the last yungib. was the hardest... MADILIM.MADULAS.MASIKIP. yea. haha.

FAAAASSSSTTT FOOOOORRRRWWAAAARRDDD. [wala kasing significant na nangyari sakin]

er. we ate lunch sa bus. and LUCKILY, wala akong lunch. IRONIC?! xD tinamad kasi nanay ko magluto. at tinamad naman ako magdala ng baunan. E DI NAGCLICK kami. haha. nagbaon na lang ako ng 3 pcs. of tinapay with chocolate palaman. [na tripan ko yung fenetti sa reco]

ang palabas naman ngayun ay: [1/2 MIRRORS (continuation) and SAW 2] .. natulog na lang ako. haha.

next stop: ATC [for us] and SOS [for officers] er. wala din. xD

next stop: PETRON. haha. dito. madaling madali ako. xD kasi. mapupuno't mapupuno ang pila sa starbux. at dahil sa pagmamadali ko. AKO ANG BUENA MANO nila. OHAAAAAAA. xD ordered a mocha frappe. (: haha.

astig nga e. dun ka makakakita ng mga taong, halos kasabay ko umorder. pero. nasa school na. di pa rin ubos. WALANJO? nilalasap ang bawat sipsip. xD

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uh. nabenta na yung isa naming car. si sentra. ): hindi naman kasi namin kelangan ng dalawang sasakyan. kaya ayun. we said byebye na.
sabi ng parents ko, parang ayaw daw ni sentra magpabenta. kasi, nung idedeliver na nila dun sa buyer. TUMIRI/EK. with no REASON at all. hindi naman siya ganun kahapon.

i'll miss sparky though. pero. i have to move forward. i have xty naman e. (:

at dahil ako'y awantikwarta. mabuti nang isulat na lang muna ang mga bagay na IBIG/KAILANGAN kong bilhin::::

• usb.
• cs3 installer
• whipped cream. ubos na supply koooo. SOS!!
  
• gips sa mga minamahal kong kaibigan [sa paskoooo]
  
• lakas ng loob
• tulog
• time
• brain cells [nadedz na silang lahat. chemistry pa lang]
• & most of all, LOAD

haha. di lahat nabibili. pero kung nabibili man yan. nako. DEDEKWATIN KO LAHAT YAN. lalo na yung BRAIN CELLS


i so. well. ABHOR chemistry.

juskooday. hate din yun. dinerecho mo na lang sana. XDD

uhh. basta, bakit pa kasi nauso e. takte. halos wala akong maintindihan. brrrrr.





"JACOB."....
he was there when "edward" left "bella".
he was there when "bella" was in state of depression
he was there to love, care & protect "bella"

but.
"BELLA"....
she loves "jacob", but not as much as she loves "edward"
she loves "jacob", but not in the same way she is in love with "edward"

was he JACOB?

BUT IN MY STORY.
"edward" .never did return but instead, he stood by his word, that

"I promise that this will be the last time you’ll see me. I won’t come back. I won’t put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I’d never existed. -Edward"

i never got my happy ending. and so did "jacob".

I love you, but I’m not in love with you. -Bella

was i the real reason we all ended up.
APART?

couldn't we be
JUST FRIENDS?
tulad lang ng dati.

why force me to choose between.
us being.
ENEMIES. OR LOVERS

it's unfair..... YOU'RE freakishly UNFAIR.



and just for once..
STOP BEING tooooo emotional.
hindi siya nakakatulong. It made and will make things WORSE.


you weren't just a GUY, dear. you're our friend. maybe. if you'd allow us to.
A BEST FRIEND perhaps?





recollection isn't fun, knowing that someone is hurting
just because he thought you didn't care enough.
just because he thought, you didn't love at all.

darnit.




what if. it's not LOVE
what if, it's just a matter of..
EMOTIONS.

what if, I REALIZED you weren't the one.

will we still be friends?

what could be the worse that could happen?

will you hurt yourself?
will you make me your enemy?
will you consider me to be like HER.?
will you label me b*tch, b*st*rd etc?
will THEY hate me too?
WILL YOU NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN?

WILL I EVER FORGIVE MYSELF because of that?

i was never sure of what i felt for you. and that uncertainty bothered me. i'd rather say, STOP than continue with something i wasn't sure of.

this hurt me as much as it would hurt you.

YES, she did love JACOB but not as much as she loves EDWARD

trying to make my life MOOOORE organized.

i'm doing assignment as SERIOUSLY as i can.
i'm listening to teachers as MUCH as i can. xDD
i'm doing my best even in seatworks,

ughh. this is what i get from slacking off last quarter. darnit. ):

last night, i dreamt about grades. i can remeber. my MAPEH grade, from 91 to 82. BANG. wassaaaak. ):

help me LORD.